What Am I Thinking??

I have been doing more and more research and aside from the nagging fear that I’m going to screw up my kids, I have to say that I feel pretty confident about our choice to home school the children. First off, I have discovered that I am among the privileged few that will be able to have a dedicated space for home schooling. I have an office downstairs that is currently serving it’s life as a playroom. That is of course, when the children can actually play in there. The sheer number of toys that two children accumulate is nauseating.

I informed one of my coworkers that if I could just pick the room up, dump it out, and start over I would. That would be much easier than wading through all the “I still want that” toys and the “I’ve been looking for that” toys when you know that is clearly NOT the case. Why is it that children want what they didn’t even know they already had?

I’ve been fairly anxious about the whole concept of giving up my financially secure job though. I realize that once I’m no longer working, I am going to have no extra money coming in. I’m considering asking my dad for some part-time work as a proofreader. I happen to be pretty good at doing that. It’s an unusual talent. Why yes, I can make sure that everything is correct in your paper. I’m the spelling superhero you never knew you needed. Sort of like a preschooler and her toys.

Seriously though, I fear that we will be required to give up a lot of things that we really enjoy, but at the same time, I’m fairly certain that things won’t be that bad. Simply because we are preparing ourselves for it as much as possible; we are paying off all credit, building up our savings, and I’ll do some part-time work if necessary. That’s the true benefit to Sean being a paramedic; his schedule. I could always get a job and work a few hours if it is really needed. I guess there’s only one way to be certain, and that’s to try it out.